The Feet of Faith
A very devout and virtuous monk had a sister in the city
who lived a dissolute life. The brothers in the desert often urged the monk
to go to the city to bring his straying sister to her senses. At first he
hesitated. He feared the dangers hiding in the world for young monks. Afterwards
he decided to go.
Just as he approached his father’s home, the neighbors
saw him coming and informed his sister. The straying sister’s heart jumped
at this unexpected news. For years she had wanted to see her beloved brother.
She ran into the street to greet her brother just as she was, with bare feet
and her head uncovered.
He, beholding her destitute state with his own eyes, was
greatly troubled. His soul wept. “Are you not sorry for your own soul,
my sister,” he told her sorrowfully, “and for those who, on your
account, go astray? Think of what awaits you after death!”
The innocent face of the brother, his unassuming attitude,
the tears of compassion that flowed from his eyes, along with his just admonition,
shook the sinful women.
“Is there salvation even for me?” her lips murmured.
“O yes, if you sincerely desire it enough.”
“Take me with you,” she begged, “and do not leave me by myself
to struggle with the fierce billows of sin.”
“Put on your sandals, cover your head and follow me,”
the monk said.
“But let me go as I am, brother, because, if I go back
into this workshop of Satan, who knows if I will have enough strength to come
back out?”
The monk was pleased with her firm resolve. Without wasting
time, he led her out of the city, and they went on their way to the desert.
He intended to take her to a convent that was known to him. While they were
walking, they saw a caravan in the distance coming to where they were.
“Get out of sight, little sister,” the monk told
her. “Hide behind the bushes; for these people, not knowing you are my
sister, might see us together and be scandalized.”
She complied with his advice. When the caravan passed, the
brother yelled to her to continue on their way. She did not seem to hear.
The monk went near and talked to her again. He pushed her with his foot. There
did not appear to be any sign of life. She had died. He saw her bare feet
completely covered with blood and torn to pieces by the stones on the road.
Discontent over the sudden death of his sister, the monk
returned to his cell. Uncertainty ate away at him.
“It is impossible for her to be saved,” his mind
told him, “since she did not have time to repent.”
He related to the elders in detail all that had happened
in the desert. It was then revealed to a very holy hermit that God had accepted
the repentance of the sinful women and had enlisted her among the righteous
for the self-denial she showed, as well as for reviling not only material
things, but her own body.
This story, taken from the writings of the desert fathers,
illustrates two things: how one’s personal witness can change another
and the true nature of repentance.
It was the humility and compassion of the monk that penetrated
the hardened heart of his sister. As St. Saraphim of Sarov said, “by
acquiring the Holy Spirit a thousand souls around us can be saved.” It
was the monk’s unity with Christ and not his intellectual knowledge of
divine things that was capable of breaking through his sister’s enslavement
to the passions.
Our Lord taught that our faith has an effect on those around
us. It was the faith of a mother for her daughter who had become possessed
by demons through which Christ granted healing:
Then Jesus answered her, "O woman, great is your faith!
Be it done for you as you desire." And her daughter was healed instantly.
(Matt 15:28)
Many times we don’t realize the impact we can have
on others. The monk left the security of the monastery, risked the temptations
of the world, and sought out his lost sister. Faith without risks is powerless.
Love without sacrifice is empty.
The sister, moved by her brother’s faith and compassion,
changes her life. In the spirit of St. Paul, she “put on the Lord Jesus
Christ, and made no provision for the flesh, to gratify its desires”
(Romans 13:14). By walking miles without shoes, she was saying that she belongs
to Christ Jesus and has crucified the flesh with its passions and desires
(Gal 5:24).
We are called upon during Great Lent to walk with feet of faith like the repentant
sister who crucified her flesh and changed her life. As Orthodox Christians
we fast for an extended period of time in order to bring the flesh into submission.
Fasting is an act of self-crucifixion; it is no different from what St. Paul
identifies, “And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the
flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also
walk by the Spirit” (Gal. 5:24-25). Fasting is not abusive but liberates
the Spirit from being controlled by the flesh. It is an act of devotion that
produces spiritual fruit.
On Mount Sinai, Moses was “with the LORD forty days
and forty nights; he neither ate bread nor drank water. And he wrote upon
the tables the words of the covenant, the Ten Commandments” (Exodus 34:28).
By fasting forty days, Moses received the Ten Commandments. Our Lord taught
that spiritual blessings are indeed acquired when fasting is combined with
prayer.
He said, “But when you fast, anoint your head
and wash your face, that your fasting may not be seen by men but by your Father
who is in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you”
(Matthew 6:17-18). Fasting is to be done so that no one is aware. The
lives of the desert fathers are full of examples of monks breaking their fasts
so that visiting pilgrims would not be made to feel bad about their own lack
of strictness. This takes away any spirit of competitiveness because the contest
is against sin not one another. True rewards are found in victory over sin.
We have entered upon the holy work of Great Lent and are
encouraged to fast and pray (Acts 14:23) so that when Holy Week arrives we
may hear, “The Spirit and the Bride say, ‘Come.’ And
let him who hears say, ‘Come.’ And let him who is thirsty come,
let him who desires take the water of life without price” (Rev 22:17).
In Christ’s love,
+ Fr. Andrew Barakos